37 Weeks (tomorrow)

Aaaaah! I'm going to be 37 weeks tomorrow. That means technically this baby could come ANYTIME. I've never had a baby this early, but hey, it could happen. Part of me feels soooooo ready to have this baby come out. This pregnancy has seemed longer than the other ones. Probably because of Jacob's Morocco trip that seemed to last months and months. I can't wait to not be pregnant anymore and to meet our little Elijah boy. I can't wait to see him and hold him and cuddle him and nurse him and love on him. The other part of me feels totally not ready though. Is it silly that I want my house to be clean when he comes? I have been trying so hard to keep my house clean and to finish up projects and put things away and do extra deep cleaning, but it seems that the more I do, the more I find that needs doing and I can't keep up on the most basic room in the house (the kitchen) because I'm busy trying to do all of the extra things. I worked ALL DAY LONG on Saturday getting extra things done in the house and cleaning and cleaning and cleaning and I didn't get to half the things on my list, and I felt so broken that night I could hardly move. My back hurt and my feet hurt and my pelvic bones hurt and I was soooooo tired. And I still have soooooo much to do. I didn't think all that work would put me into labor or anything, but I was hoping for a contraction or two out of it since I had worked so hard, but nothing. Although I do thing that Elijah dropped that day, so maybe all my cleaning wasn't just for nothing, lol. I had a dr appointment today. He did my strep test and decided to check to see if there was anything going on. I am about a fingertip dilated and my cervix is still pretty thick, but Elijah is WAY down there. I'm hoping that doing some walking (and more cleaning) this next week will maybe help thin out my cervix. I'm at the point where I will start having my appointments everyweek from now til he is born. Most of the prenatal dr appointments I find pointless, especially going through this the 3rd time, but these ones at the end are kind of nice because they at least tell me more of what is going on. I totally wish I knew when Elijah's birthday was going to be. The not knowing and not being able to plan for it exactly drives me crazy. With Rachel I was almost a week over due and Kent came about a day before hi lds due date, so I'm not expecting Elijah to come earlier than that, but there is a part of me that wonders if it will be different this time and he will come earlier. (Probably it's just wishful thinking, lol.) Also, I wonder how Kent will handle having this new little guy around. He's been asking me more and more lately to hold him. It's almost as if he knows he is about to be kicked out of his baby spot. Obviously he knows we are having a baby, but he doesn't quite get what that really means. He's been super cute lately carrying around a little baby doll and wrapping it in blankets and giving it kisses and singing it songs. I think he will love his brother, but I just worry he won't get the Mommy attention he needs after he comes. New babies are always an adjustment for everyone, but I think that it's probably hardest on the youngest child. I hope Kent does okay. Anyway, that is what is currently on my mind. I can't wait til this baby comes and I'm excited to meet him, but also a little nervous about the unknown. I'll try to put a belly picture up tomorrow of my 37 week tummy.